Jun 2, 2013

Now That I'm Published.....


It doesn't actually feel like.

I released Flicker, a novelette via Kindle Select about a month ago, timed with the end of the A-Z challenge.  I didn't give it much attention, just a one little liner.

And while I was thrilled when I saw it pop up on Amazon, I haven't actually talked about it much.

In fact, I've told a grand total of two people that I'm a published author: a random Korean I shared a burger with in Hawassa during a race and my sister who freaked out more than me at the news over Skype.

And really, I can't figure out why I'm hushing it.  I mean, I've worked on this story for probably a year and a half, it's my first real published work and I have a sale! (Okay, it was me, but it still counts right?) Why aren't I over the moon about it?

Was it too easy? Am I not happy with it? Is it because the people I would want to celebrate with are no where near me? Am I worried that people will hate it, so it better to not risk the rejection?

I mean, I started this blog to chronicle the dream of getting published. It's done. I should feel something, right?

Anyone else have an unexpected reaction to getting their work out there?

6 comments:

  1. Wow, congratulations!!! You shouldn't be keeping it hidden, you should be shouting about it! Perhaps you're still dazed. My reaction when Cat and The Dreamer was published was "what next?" Perhaps it's because you're so far away from home and you're feeling a bit detached from the real you?

    Oh yes, and I'm off to buy it now :-)

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    1. Maybe. That's true, most of the people who helped me with it aren't here.

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  2. Gwen! Come on! Shout it loud and proud - YOU ARE A PUBLISHED WRITER! I'm off to buy it. xx

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    1. I am a published writer, aren't I? I should make that a large sign and paste it on my door.

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  3. Maybe it just hasn't hit yet. Once you start getting sales or see that first payment, then you'll be like "Wow, I'm an author."

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    1. I guess, but I just I just thought it would hit me sooner.

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